You are Worthy

“In fact, even the hairs on your head are all numbered. Do not be afraid; you are more valuable than many sparrows.” 

Luke 12:7

Earlier this month was suicide awareness week. I’m not sure why it’s chosen to be in September, but that is the month that Suicide awareness is given. In recent years I’ve been more and more open about my struggle with depression. Although now I am in a much better and lighter place I can’t help but feel compassion for those who continue to deal with suicidal thoughts secretly, and for those who have taken their own lives for reasons they only know. Whether you’re a Christian or not mental health can attack us all. I remember the days when I really struggled and I felt like I could not move on and get out of the funk. I felt like I was always going to feel that darkness around me forever. Overtime with a decision that I made that my life was worthy, I kept fighting. And yes it was a fight. Like I’ve said, I’ve made it really far through therapy, speaking out about it, positive affirmations, books, journaling, God etc. Everything has gotten me to this place where I am right now. Which is here alive writing this blog and knowing deep in my bones that I’m meant to be here.

My prayer and wish for everyone dealing with depression is that they would find the same conviction. I know depression and suicidal thoughts can look very different for people. My experience will not be the same as yours or anyone else who is battling mentally, but something that we all have in common, like I’ve mentioned on my instagram posts… is breath. A breath. God knew you were going to be here before your parents did. I know you might be thinking something like “how could my life have a purpose?” or maybe “I wasn’t suppose to be here” or “I was a mistake.” Whatever it is that your mind is telling you the truth is that we can’t possibly ever fully understand faith and how the creator of the universe decided to design humans and destiny, (okay that’s deep). My point is that yes you are suppose to be here. You are worthy.

In the verse above Jesus is teaching on this very point. You can read all of Luke chapter 12 to understand the context, but basically he’s saying if all the birds have a purpose, why wouldn’t we? He says, “in fact even the hairs on your head are numbered.” The hairs that constantly falling off my head are numbered. That’s how close God is to every single one of us. We might think that our life is meaningless and insignificant at times, I know I have when I was deep into my depression, so yes having a deep knowing that your life is meaningful is kind of motivating. Don’t give up on your life too soon. You are sooo sooo sooo worthy. I want you to look in the mirror later when you have a chance and tell yourself “I am worthy.” It might feel silly, but it’s the truth. You are worthy.

God bless you! Have a blessed week ahead of you 🙂