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But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says: “God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.”

James 4:6

Earlier this month I had a birthday and birthdays can actually be a little hard for me. I always feel this pressure that my life and my birthday should be a certain way. When I was a kid I would even throw tantrums when I didn’t get a gift that I wanted. It’s a little embarrassing to admit that even now I have my mini tantrums too, but all that causes me to ask myself why? Was I just a spoiled kid? Or am I spoiled person? The thought of being spoiled fills me with guilt and shame, which leads me to ask why would I have such high expectations of wanting my birthday to feel “extra special or amazing”? And why do I feel this anxiety of being another year older? I know it’s a redundant thing to hear these days, 2020 has been a weird and rough year yes, but I as I look back on this year I see so many blessings that God welcomed into my life. I’m not talking about material blessings, but personal blessings. Like being able to focus more on starting my blog, and having the courage and the support to keep going when I’ve been too scared. Also the willingness to give up some destructive habits that I was struggling with for years, or being able to focus on what is important like being a better sister or daughter for my parents. All of these blessings came through as hardships, sacrifices, and tears, but none the less they were blessings. Although I know that it’s always a blessing to even have breath for one more day, it’s hard to think that way when you’re healing through things, or facing depression or anxiety. Yet God knows all of this. He knows what we need more than we do. So let’s continue to press through the difficult times and stay grateful for life. In the Bible there are many times that God “favors the humble and opposes the proud,” yet we underestimate the fact that it actually takes so much strength to be humble. This year I learned that being humble comes with bringing that pride down, which means lots of self awareness, reading scripture, lots of prayer, and lots of practice. Cause let’s be real, it’s hard not to want to knock someone upside the head when we’re insulted or treated unfairly, or life just doesn’t seem fair for whatever reason, but that’s why we have God. He is always just and fair. All this to say that even though I still felt that anxiety on my birthday, I actually had a great birthday! From reflecting on my year, to the birthday wishes, to being surrounded by people who love me and did an amazing job at making me feel special that day, I felt truly blessed. So let’s stay humble and continue to do our best with what we got. Thanks for reading. Have a super blessed week!